I envied the better life.

More than mundane
Remnants of war and famine remained

I was promised

What every girl dreams
A bride-to-be
Far from terror and irony
Romance, love
Cherish me
Wealth, status
Opportunity

Unfortunately,

I feel as though every

facet of my life is controlled.

I once desired this life.

A plentiful place
A new face
A foreign escape

Because I hoped for something more than what I had.

I miss my family, what I knew as home and real.
I cannot leave, communicate, participate
My simple rights
Degraded to a document
And he confiscated them
Without these
I’m an object
Not a human
Lack of paper makes me
Incomplete

He traps me.
Every day.
Forces me out of dignity
Raping me, yelling
Threatening
Numb to the sound
Of the beatings.

I never knew

 

 

 

 

I feel lost.

What with this suffering I do.
Pains me.

I am not a wife. I am only a CAPTIVE.

I now desire anything but here.